...just because i dont say certain things doesnt mean i dont -feel- them...

my first semester of college is done.
so fucking crazy.

i took my microecon final tonight. um well. haha it was amusing to say the least? i guess i really should have gone to the class. i went for one month.. at most. damn. oh well.

maybe ill try next semester.. maybe.

tomorrow = french final (i wouldnt even consider it a test)
and HOME!

i mean i want to go home.. but im not too excited i guess. i mean not like before. before i wanted to so badly. it was all i could think of. and now..well i dont know. im going to miss michelle and ann so much. what am i going to do when im bored? haha. but i hope ill just be working a lot and keeping myself busy that way.

i cannot wait to bake christmas cookies though. mmmmm :D
and i need to still finish christmas shopping.. big time.
and i need to wrap presents.
:D
i <3 christmas so much.

so i have two huge suitcases.. a completely full backpack, and my laptop case all to get to the airport somehow tomorrow. i have to get on a bus, and then the light rail to get to the airport. this will be super interesting :\

i feel like im forgetting to pack something really important. but i have no idea what that could be. damn.

oh well.
goodnight world.

so its december 11.. that means today, tomorrow, and wed. of classes.
thursday = fabulous calc final.
next monday = microecon. :( :( :( ughhhh i dont even want to take it.
next tuesday = french... HOMEE!! :D :D

7 more full days here.

i can honestly say its not too bad though anymore. i mean there are days when everything just seems so horrible and all i want to do is cry all day. but its not everyday anymore.. and im proud of myself for that.

i still dont know how i got through this all by myself. but i did.
and i met a couple people who if i left, i would miss them so much.

man i cant wait to work. i need the money so badly.

im selling back one of my books today. maybe i'll get some money. i need to buy some christmas presents still. :\

so i was thinking.. and i havent whined about boys on here lately.. hahahaha.
just college.
im forgetting about college now in life, and im going to think about other things. :D haha

i really dont want to go to french today. or wed. it is soooo pointless. except we have the listening part of the final on wed. i think i should be there for that? haha.

everyone.. good luck on finals!! :D :D :D or good luck on studying in my case..

lets go home!! (7 days ahhhh.)

love love love
-Gina.

..and my heart isnt here.

i cant begin to explain to you what im feeling.
i just feel sick to my stomach all the time.
and the worst was coming back here after break.
worst feeling ever.
i feel like every time i go home, i just have to say goodbye to everything all over again.

less than 3 weeks.
december 19.
could not come fast enough.

i always feel like im wishing away time.
i dont want to do that.
i want to enjoy this.. and to be happy.
and i dont want to countdown anymore.
and i dont want to wish that the days would just disappear.
and im sick of sleeping ALL the time.
even when i went home, i didnt go out. well because i was sick, but i just wanted to sleep anyways.
something is wrong.
i want to fix it.
but how?

...

love love love

3 weeks.

21 days.

i think i can last that long, or hopefully i can.

im crossing off days on the calender/counting down. so sad. i know.

less than a month until i get to see my doggie, and my bed, and a couch with cable tv. ahh. i swear im just going to die. well maybe not, but its close for sure.

so its saturday night at 10:27. and im sitting on my computer. but not for long. im going to bed! :D no really. i have an early job interview thing with american eagle tomorrow morning at 9, but it will take like an hour to get there because the buses/light rail doesnt run as often on sundays. which sucks. so i have to wake up at like 630. yuck! BUT since we had to change the clocks back tonight.. it will be really be like 730 which is awesome..

colleen is also gone for the night to her friends house in st.paul. so i can go to bed and not be bothered until my alarm goes off at 630 in the morning. woo! :D

..so i dont know what to do. i just feel so sad all the time. and so mad. and so disappointed. and everything bad combined. its so horrible. i hate it. but i dont know what to do. i cant even fake being happy, because im the farthest thing from happy. and i have no idea why. its great up here. it really is. beautiful campus, great people, great business school. but i hate it. so much. and i dont know what to do. i dont even know where to start. transfer? maybe.. probably not. why would i want to start over? what if i hate it more? i can do this,right? i can be this strong, right? i dont feel like i am this strong. i feel like sleeping all the time, and just blocking everything else out because its so bad. all i want is thanksgiving right now. just to get on a fucking plane to go home to chicago. chicago is where my heart is for sure. i just want to sit in my kitchen and talk to my momma, or fight in person with my dad, or joke around with billy and taylor. its so hard to think about how i cant do that because all i do when i think about it, is cry. and i dont want to cry anymore. im done crying. ive cried everyday for the past 2 months. every single fucking day. over the same thing. it hurts so bad. so bad. my heart just hurts. and my stomach hurts. and i dont know how to explain it. the only way i can express it is through crying. and that gets me nowhere. it hurts like nothing ive felt before. im just so lonely. so lonely. all the time. or at least i feel all alone all the time.

i just want to be happy.
.and i want to be able to say i miss you and i love you to the people i need to say it to on the phone without crying.
is that too much?
i know its hard for everyone. and i know there are a lot of people going through this same thing, and this same hurt. i just dont know how to be strong through something like this. this is by far the hardest thing ive ever had to do in my life.

i dont know what to do.
or what to think.

i cant cry anymore.

To live in this world, you must be able to do three things:
to love what is mortal;
to hold it against your bones knowing your own life depends on it;
and, when the time comes to let it go, to let it go.
-Mary Oliver

holy shit.

my last entry was like..5 months ago.. exactly actually. thats weird.

so minnesota is good. kind of. im lying if i say i love it. because im real lonely. and bored most of the time. but that is bound to happen i guess. minneapolis is a pretty cool city. its not big. nor confusing. there is a light rail. and it goes in a straight line basically. no connecting light rails like chicago. so that is convienant. and the last stop on the light rail is the mall of america. and a couple before that is the airport. so convienance is key. i love that light rail.
i've met some really cool kids here. they live right above me, so thats always nice.
it's just not home.
i went home last weekend for the first time. it was so nice to sleep in my bed, with my dog. and to have real food that was actually cooked by my mom.

shann came to see me this weekend! it was so so nice. let me tell you. i wish the weekend could have lasted longer for sure. way too fast. when she left this morning, i cried in my bed for like an hour. all i do is cry since i got here. its so ridiculous. i am so emotional all the time. everytime i see someone from home, or they come see me and leave, or when i left my house, i had to fight back tears so hard. it hurts.

but..i figure it can only get better right? i mean i ripped everything i had known for 18 years away from me to come here. i was below the very bottom. and it sucked.

i have to be strong. so strong all the time. and it just really wears me out. and its effecting me physically too. im bloated and ive gained so much weight from stress. its gross. i have to start changing my stress levels by actually doing homework and studying and not just sitting on this fucking computer.

dont get me wrong, ive had some fun here. a lot of fun. good parties with good people. grey's night every thursday is always a favorite. we went to a bar afterwards last thursday and danced. by we, i mean heather, gemma, and michelle. they're my girls! :D

where is thanksgiving? and my bed? ugh.

woo for livejournal. haha.

xoxo

Imperfection is beauty; madness is genius. And it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring. - Marilyn Monroe.


so recently.. not much has been new i suppose. spring break is in 2 days. thank god. it needs to be here. i just want to sit around.. i have no plans other than work (i dont know what days) and some shopping hopefully with my momma. oh oh! and me and shann are going for lunch. :) hopefully.

about 40 more days of school left. my high school career is almost over.. and im so fucking happy. i dont know if anyone else understands how happy i am that it is over. these 4 years have been so up and down. total rollercoaster.

theres this girl named gemma who lives in minnesota and she is studying the same thing i am, and she is my age. and shes one of the coolest people ever. i really REALLY hope we get to room together. that would be so great. it would just be a relief. she seems a lot like me, so thats pretty cool.

last weekend was so much fun. i love lauren with all my heart. we have way too much fun together. we went to visit our old manager Joe at his new store in niles. we got lost. real lost. we called the store like 4 times asking where it was.. heres on of the conversations i had with the boy up front..

boy: Hello?
me : do you know how i can get to your store from arlington heights?
boy: do you know where 43 is?
me : no..?
boy : well then.. i dont know.
me : thanks man. thanks for the help.

it was so funny. the store is so ghetto i loved it. its so little. i would love to work there. i wish it just wasnt so far. i would commute but im too lazy for that. He doesnt even make the people clean the store at night. which to me is so funny because the store was trashed.. but hey thats cool i guess. haha.

heres whats been going on recently in little sentences..
1. burrito bowls at chipotle are for wimps.
2. me and lauren love dancing and singing in the car to NSYNC.
3. i am anti-social (this is what fernando says)
4. randhurst mall closes at 7 on saturdays..why, we dont know.
5. there are some boys in the world that are the biggest creeps.
6. i <3 coronas. of course.
7. the inside of my car smells better than yours.. :) i bought the best air freshener.
8. i finally got my ipod. i love it.

woo. love love love.
be safe lovers.

i am in love with james blunt. or at least his cd. :)

tomorrow is friday. thank you. this week has only lasted forever.
spring break.. where are you?
tonight at work me, amy, and jon each ate a bag of gummy lifesavers.. dont do it. it made my tummy hurt so bad. way too much sugar. yuck.

homework needs to end. its not funny anymore. these teachers need to realize that its over. they can give up now. its okay.

i shouldnt have signed up for the french ap test. im really too lazy to take an ap tests. but i felt like such a slacker if i didnt take at least one. whatever. its not like this teacher has even tried to prepare us. i hope they do not put the poor ap kids next year in this class environment. its horrible.

i should really really go to bed. but i wont. my insomnia (spelling?) is coming back. i hate it.

goodbye my lover.

my heart is in minnesota...




friday = work..then ihop with anthony.
saturday = carwash, randhurst mall with lauren, driving, random music, singing + dancing. then work.
JESSICA CAME IN WITH ANDY ON SATURDAY NIGHT! :) slurpees + meijer.

i need june 2nd to come now. my head/heart isnt here anymore..

bonjour.. salut.

im really content right now.. minus i have to go to work in a couple minutes for 7 hours. that part really sucks because i really dont like going there anymore. but whatever.
i got a 100% on my math quiz yesterday. woo. first A in math so far this year, and its only because i dropped down. sweet.
i didnt have work yesterday. :) i like these fridays off.

me and nic went to go see date movie. it was so funny. so random, but funny. we went and got jamba juice/chipotle before. mmm. it was goood. i missed that girl. shes just too much fun. im making her a shirt that says.. "a golden gopher loves me!" just because my mascot next year is a gopher. haha. how funny. hers is a trojan. so i guess we are both kind of even.

i want to go to randhurst mall.. now. there is this store there that i need to go to. supposedly it has some cheap nice clothes. im definitely up for that.

i HAVE TO do my research paper tonight. tonight is the night that the rough draft gets done. im not really done with all the research so that needs to get down tonight too of course. but im determined to finish this and not worry about it again! i just want to get all this school crap over. i hate it. im ready for summer.. or at least spring break. ahh.

also as much as i love winter.. it needs to end if there is going to be no more snow. im sick of cold weather and no snow. but then again i hate spring just as much because i hate rain and tornados. rain just makes me so sad and tired and gross feeling. so hopefully we can just pass up spring. and go into summer. considering i didnt get a good amount of snow this year, we need to have a great summer. hopefully we will. :)

off to work.. yuck.
love love love
have a great day!

i am a loner. its okay. oh katie, we're funny, but honest. haha.

today was a pretty good i suppose. i went to my new classes.. for the 5th time this year. haha. math is good. very good. i already learned this chapter.. so thats pretty cool. gym is good. and government is fine just because i still have mr. gilette.

65 more days of school.. i am counting down. its getting that bad. im so restless lately. i cant concentrate and i have no will power to really do anything related to school. i dont know how i am going to take 3 ap tests. its going to be a challenge. maybe ill only take french because im really not worried about that one. i just dont know.
ive never felt this careless before. i hate it. but i cant help it.

new things are good.

i have to work on saturday from 9 to 4. that is pretty much going to be a bad day. great. hopefully its brian and yarka's weekend. that would make it half decent then.

thursday is coming.. im more than excited. :)

love love love

friday night = so much fun. but it made me want to go to college even more. i went up by jess. we sat around with some people.. i forgot most of their names.. i think leah was one. and then there was this kid andy.. who is so funny. and then his roommate john who took us to taco bell. haha. good times just sitting around, having a couple drinks, laughing and talking. especially since it was with jess. i miss her a lot. even though shes only 30 minutes away.

so i switched my math class.. finally. im in normal calc now. i had to switch my gym and government class though. which i was perfectly okay with because i needed to get out of that math class.

i had to talk with mr.kurfess before i switched out because he wanted to know what was wrong. he always makes me feel a lot better because hes just so nice. and he actually cares about people. its nice. i will miss him next year. hes a real good guy.

kt time later! :) ive missed this girl like crazy. we're going out to dinner. :)

thennnn on friday.. which is kind of in advance but its okay.. i dont have work.. and me and nic are going out. ive missed her like crazy too.

i hope this week goes by fast. i want spring break to come. we all need a break.. soon.

me = going to the library soon. to work on the research paper. get it over with.

love love love

today was my first saturday off.. in about a year. it was so weird. i didnt know what to do with myself. so i just sat around. it was nice actually. i was on the computer alot. i finished all my ap math problems (which is amazing by the way), and i did my bio project. pretty impressive.
i have to work from 11 to 5 tomorrow. :(

i think i am going to find a new job. i think im just done with michaels. or im going to get a second job. because money will be so needed in the summer. i was thinking about working at the pool. ill get to sit outside. so that would be fun. and easy. and then i can work at michaels at night if this new manager ever figures out to give us people who have been there FOREVER more hours than all the new seasonal people. i doubt he will though. he seems to dislike me very much. and its mutual.

next saturday i will be at jess's. having fun. :) woo. i cant wait to see her.

i hate when people take things too far. i mean they assume things. and then they are wrong. especially when it comes to relationships. im not really one for relationships as it is. i like to have fun, and hang out with lots of people and get to know people. that doesnt make me horrible, and that doesnt mean i am playing with emotions like people have said in the past. im not getting married anytime soon. right now, im not really looking for anything serious. i want to live and have fun and see what is out there. i cant do that when people are assuming. i cant even take this anymore. no one knows what i am talking about.. which is good. its a long story. with two completely different sides. and its bugging me. you know when something just keeps popping up in your head and you dont know if you should bring it up or say something? well that is what this is. this problem that is. its like a little pest. blah.

im going to hang out with my sister. we're gonna watch the disney channel or something. haha. :) i love her.
love love love

was looking through old old journals and random pieces of crumpled paper that i have written stuff on and folders filled with more used paper.. and i come across this..i remember when i first read it and i thought it was just so true in some aspects, just because its very blunt i think. and sarcastic. haha. ENJOY!    :)

Wear Sunscreen
Mary Schmich

-If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now.

-Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth.

-Oh nevermind. you will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they have faded.

-But trust me, in 20 years you’ll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can’t grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really look.

-You’re not as fat as you imagine.

-Don’t worry about the future. or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum.

-The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday.

-Do one thing everyday that scares you

-Sing

-Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts.

-Don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours.

-Floss

-Don’t waste your time on jealousy.

-Sometimes you’re ahead, sometimes you’re behind.

-The race is long, and in the end, it’s only with yourself.

-Remember the compliments you receive.

-forget the insults. if you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

-Keep your old love letters. throw away your old bank statements.

-Stretch

-Don’t feel guilty if you don’t know what you want to do with your life…the most interesting people I know didn’t know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives.

-some of the most interesting 40 year olds I know still don’t.

-Get plenty of calcium.

-Be kind to your knees, you’ll miss them when they’re gone.

-Maybe you’ll marry, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll have children,maybe you won’t.

-maybe you’ll divorce at 40, maybe you’ll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary.

-what ever you do, don’t congratulate yourself too much or berate yourself either – your choices are half chance, so are everybody else’s.

-Enjoy your body, use it every way you can.

-don’t be afraid of it, or what other people think of it, it’s the greatest instrument you’ll ever own.

-Dance…even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.

-Read the directions, even if you don’t follow them.

-Do NOT read beauty magazines, they will only make you feel ugly.

-Get to know your parents, you never know when they’ll be gone for good.

-Be nice to your siblings; they are the best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

-Understand that friends come and go,but for the precious few you should hold on.

-Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle because the older you get, the more you need the people you knew when you were young.

-Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard.

-live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft.

-Travel.

-Accept certain inalienable truths, prices will rise, politicians will philander, you too will get old.

-and when you do you’ll fantasize that when you were young prices were reasonable, politicians were noble and children respected their elders.

-Respect your elders.

-Don’t expect anyone else to support you.

-Maybe you have a trust fund, maybe you have a wealthy spouse; but you never know when either one might run out.

-Don’t mess too much with your hair, or by the time you're 40, it will look 85.

-Be careful whose advice you buy, but, be patient with those who supply it.

-Advice is a form of nostalgia.

-dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it’s worth.

-But trust me on the sunscreen…

so ive been terribly sick. i havent had this bad of a sore throat in such a long time. i hate it. i havent been to school in the past 2 days. i hate missing school because there is always so much to catch up on. yuck. and i am losing my 5 free days. so now im done to 3 more before i have to take finals. im saving them until the end.. or unless for some reason i am going to die and i need to stay home..
ive slept so much in the past 2 days i think im caught up on all my sleep. its a nice feeling.

i got my hair cut. more layers. it looks cute.

im thinking alot nowadays. its crazy. i think im just trying to pull everything in my past together. im realizing that in 7 months from now, im not going to be here. i will have a new home. 7 hours away. i guess i just dont want to leave anything behind unfinished.

i think once spring break comes, life will start getting crazy. i will have to take placement tests. orientation. shopping. im gonna want to go to minnesota alot just to get used to it. know where im going before i get there. im just nervous like that. and i have to be ready or else i will drive myself up the wall.

i want to do many things this summer.. i hope it doesnt go by too fast.

why am i thinking so far ahead? i dont know. its making me crazy. i need to stop thinking for like an hour. maybe ill become sane again. maybe.
ah.
love love love

so today is turning out to be a wonderful day..
1. i got a B+ on my government test. :) i guess everynight notes and vocab and two hour studying real does help. considering its my best grade on a history test EVER. :)
2. its friday and I DONT WORK.
3. i got paid today. and i made enough money to pay for my ticket and still have some money left over for whatever. not enough to save. it will probably go towards gas..
4. i left amyyyyy a fantastic voicemail at lunch. it was like 3 minutes long of nonsense rambling. she'll love it.

im confused. its weird when you talk to someone you havent in awhile for various reasons..and then you talk, like today for instance. for like 45 seconds maybe. and we can still make eachother laugh within the first sentence i say. i dont know. i dont think you can help who you have loved in the past.. and i know you cant help that you ever loved them. but do you think it ever goes way? or does it stay and just get pushed aside when the time isnt right? i dont know. its stuck in my head. its killing me actually. i dont know. maybe some things in my past arent supposed to go away. maybe if something is supposed to be there it just keeps coming back. im not sure. i sometimes hate feeling so many emotions at one time. je ne sais pas.
i was rambling. im sorry. i just needed to let it out somehow and im in class right now and i finished my paper. so livejournal is my boredom-free..er? yes. haha.

so tonight. im grounded? maybe i dont know. im going to work out after school though. and then dinner possibly? then lauren time.. with the costa rican. :) haha. ...if im not grounded. haha. i kind of should stay in. i need to get so many things done it feels like.. but actually i dont.
i sent in my minnesota "yes im coming.. heres you money" thing.
i sent the no forms to the other schools.
i filled out the fafsa. i didnt send it yet because me and my dad did not know if we filled in all the right info. we have to check it over.
i do have to go to the library and get the state tax form deal.
i did my federal taxes. i get a good amount of money back. more than last year. that will go towards my college fund. im already in debt basically...
BUT minnesota uped my scholarship i got. and by uped i mean like 4000 more a year. thank god. :) my dad is happy. im ecstatic. that mean i will 16000 less in debt when i get out of there. FABULOUS.
wow i really wish i didnt have to take this writing class. i dont need 8 days to write a 5 paragraph paper on myself. i was done within the first class period we had to write it. and i hate this keyboard. i want mine from home.
SOOOO. i went to walgreens during lunch after i got my check because i didnt have enough to go home.. and they now have reeses peanut butter cups with CARAMEL. oh my god! i ate one and all i could think of was.. this is complete and total heaven. i was so content with the 10 seconds of chewing that.. it was sad. god i love food.
i was talking about this with an old friend yesterday and how my love for food kills me. i think someone i know has been starving themselves.. and i dislike that. i could NEVER do that. i love ice cream too much. and i love fruit too much. mmmmm. :) :) :)
so anyways. im getting a weird pain underneath my upper arm right now. it hurts. im done.
love love love.

im sick of having so many feelings at once... blah.

..so recently i have been in a john mayer loving phase. again. i just listen to the cd over and over and over again. its great. haha.i wish he could come back to concert again. they are always very fun concerts. :)

today = 4 months until school is over. for good. je suis tres heureuse pour ca.

mm recently. all i have been doing is homework. ap government is killing me. absolutely killing me. since i did so bad last year in ap us history, im actually trying in government. its hard. i take extensive notes everynight and define all the vocab. man. i better have done good on the test today. if i didnt, then im not trying hard anymore. and i will just not deny anymore that history is not my thing. oh well.
mrs. sharkey had her baby. and she is gone. thank god. i think 7 more weeks with this new guy. hes real nice. and fun. im gonna hate to see him leave. especially since when she comes back all we will be doing is ap test prep. and im not taking the ap test. ah oh well i guess. good practice? i have to keep telling myself some reason for why im still in the class. haha.

i got my first ticket last saturday. it was like 1045, me and my sister were going to get ice cream because the power was out since 6 at night that night. so we're both in pajamas. and we are going down weathersfield past mineke. and the lights go on. all i could of was.. my dad is going to kill me. so the cop comes to the car and tells me that i rolled through the stop sign like a mile back. my sister made one of those sounds that you make when you hold back laughter. i was in shock. and i still got a ticket. jerk. he just didnt like me because i was young i think. whatever. thats stupid. i dislike cops. minus my cousin, hes cool i guess.

i think ive gone maybe a whole week without being online. crazy. i dont know if i have done that before. wow.

so i was looking at old stuff that ive kept.. like scrapbook pages and pictures..and i was thinking about the past 4 years. ive changed so much. and so has everyone whos been around me. i was looking at a picture from 8th grade of me and kopecky, it made me smile. i think my friendship with her has not changed at all. we're still so silly and weird. its great. then there are alllll the many pictures of me and shann. haha. we've changed. its different. je ne sais pas. i dont like it. i think we need to get rid of our cars and start rollerblading again. that will bring us closer. hahah.
i love having memories like that to look back on. sometimes its good to have one of those days i think. just to remember. and to laugh and smile about all the different things. im a nerd.. i know.

im reading Fast Food Nation for biology. its pretty interesting so far. right now its explaining about how all the major fast food places started. pretty cool. i hear it gets into gross details. but thats okay because the book is based mostly on mcdonalds i think, and i dont eat mcdonalds at all. and i never have. im excited to get more into the book.
i love reading. woo.

love love love

hello hello.
so 2nd semester started. our last semester of high school. thank god. :) i changed alot of classes. i have a new french class. its okay. better than the last one.. mm government is going to kick my ass. especially since history means absolutely nothing to me and either does government. bio is the same. math is different BECAUSE MRS SHARKEY IS GONE. she had her baby this morning. and well life is now a lot brighter and better. our sub is great. hes 22. just got out of college. ex-college football player. hes really laidback. umm he cracks jokes about everything. i love him already. i have a different gym class. chad and joey v. and tesnow are basically the only kids i talk to in the class. our teacher seems nice. i dont know. its only gym.
it sucks having lunch at 1. im starving by the time i get home. and i eat everything in my house. its not good.
i LOVE leaving school early. oh its so nice to not have to fight with traffic and having a whole extra hour to go work out, do homework, or whatever i want. im enjoying it so much. :)
tonight = work. fabulous. with my fabulous new manager. yeah right.
then me and lauren are going out. to where who knows. but somewhere. and im taking lots of pictures because i need to scrapbook some stuff.

the weather was b-e-a-utiful outside today. so so nice. i wanted to pull out a lawn chair and just sit outside. i love days like this.

i was looking through my Hdrive at school today during expo and i found the outline to my research paper last year. i forgot how well i did on that paper. i should have kept a copy. it was actually really good. haha. at least i accomplished one good thing during high school. psh.

im going to see jess on feb. 18. im excited. i miss that girl too much. and i need to get out of here. should be lots of fun. :)
i get to go to minnesota sometime in the near future. i have to take some placement tests. woohoo. i cant wait to go again! i wish i could find like a website or something that would allow me to meet people who are gonna go there next year too. or people who live up there. just to meet some people. and get to know some people before i go. that could be good. but then again i kind of just want to go and not know anyone and just meet everyone. i dont know. im so excited for it.
then in march.. christina comes home. we are going for lunch or dinner at sweet tomatos. woo. i havent been there in awhile, and i havent seen christina in awhile. double treat. hahahah.

love love love

this weekend = pretty nice.
me and my sister layed around just about the whole entire weekend, minus when i had to work and went out to eat with my parents. i have never watched so many episodes of NEXT and MADE and the Suite Life of Zack and Cody. haha. talk about a lack of good tv shows. oh yeah and i watched Meet the Barkers. but i like that show. its funny.

2nd semester tomorrow. my schedule really changes. which is good because things needed to be switched up a bit. i now get out of school at 2:35. and i have lunch at 1. haha. cool. but cool = about 4 months left of school.

i cant wait until college. thats all i can think about recently. i want to go so bad. but im gonna miss my family so much. i think it will be a great change though. definitely an experience. i cant wait. god im so impatient.

i have to go to work soon. oh and i still have this bio worksheet to do. oops.

love love love :)